chronicles of my swimming classes!

Ok! so it goes, that I am doomed!
My swimming coach is barbarous and vindictive!!! He secretly wants to kill me! He is a hired criminal! He has resolved to drown 500 people and I'm sure he was on 499 this morning!
:(

I am going to put posters with his picture all over Bangalore, so that people are beware of him..I am telling ya! He is quite insane!
I dont know how and why I get stuck with all sorts of weird people everytime!

Arrey! There's a way of teaching how to swim! He fuckin' just keeps pushing me in the pool, as if I'm scared.. OK, may be I am..but still.. hehe..
Everytime someone else will go across the pool, he'd not say a word and will watch silently, as if someone just pulled his tongue out from his mouth! But the moment 'I' start going ( and I'll be all chill and all, ok!) he jumps and comes at my end..and gives me all sorts of instructions! I mean, I understand things if told once! He doesnt have to repeat it 15 times! And I get conscious then, thinking tht I might be doing something wrong!

Then he'd keep yapping - 'keep kicking, keep kicking! cmon sugandh! u can do it!'
I mean, whats the god damn hue & cry about man! Just chill! It aint any Olympics or something, that he has to get so hyper!
On the 1st day, when I'd entered the expert zone by mistake, he did not come to save me despite my helpless screams and forlorn yelling! So, how can I trust him NOW!
He'd keep saying - "Dont worry, what are you scared of baby? I am there na! "

Like, duh??! "HE" is there, and thats my biggest concern! And hello?? Me aint any baby!!!
Idiot.

God damn it! May be his grandfather did something 50 years ago, which he is angry about, but thats not MY problem! Why's he getting mad at ME! Bloody fatso! huh..

God save me! When will the 15 days get over!

bckgrnd - "Thats the way it is - Celine Dion"
/me -

but i cant help...

falling in love with you...

shall i stay? shall i say?
would it be a sin,
if i , i can't help
falling in love with you?

like a river flows, surely to the sea.
darling so it goes, somethings are meant to be..

/me -

whatever!

there was one big anti climax to my painting-adventure!
watever!! let me explain.

saturday morning - i am all set to go fetch the paint and all. I call up my landlord so that he can come over and we can buy the right colour.
He sounded all sweet and nice.

[saturday]
me(walking up-n-down in the balcony) - hello anil, good morning! we are all set. are you coming over?
anil - hello! actually i hv another idea.. if i may propose that....?
me - yeah, sure! tell me.
anil - actually, i was thinking yesterday that for this current place i can get 6500 to 7000 easily.
me(looking at a cow on the road) - hmm.. you're not too wrong.
anil - and you're paying me just 5250/-
me(looking at the cow peeing) - that is ALSO true!
anil - So, how about vacating the place? I dont want to run a loss you know!
me - :-o (silent)
anil - hello?
me - (what a f***face!)
[/saturday]

So tht was it.
I was back to square one!!

the whole of sunday I kept on looking for places left-right and center!! Finally found a really nice place right behind TGIF on airport road! Moving in with rachita (bitsian friend). its a brand new house.. and we'll be the first occupants.. so everything looks nice and new, and polished and shining.! :D
And the best part about the house is that the main hall has one wall orange and the others yellow, with green doors! I loved it! yeah! you read it right!! Orange wall!!
and theres a nice sit out - where i am gonna put a cane swing! just like the one I hv at home in kanpur..

shifting by next week..

Ok! Not so bad, eh??! (the swing part is making me feel better!)

bckgrnd - "Linkin Park - Numb"
/me -

painto-the-delighto!

OK! I am super excited! :)
Guess what! I am going to paint my house this weekend! It'd be fun! I have called Shekhar(IBM postman) for help. He'd get the ladder and all..
I hv spoken to the paints shop guy..and to the landlord.

Its not going to be much.. just 2 rooms.. kitchen.. bathrooms..and here and there..
I might get tored.. but I'll see. [tored = bored + tired] :D
Also, looks like I'll hv to postpone my Mysore trip. But since it was meant to be a surprise anyways, its okay!

Yay! :)

backgrnd - "can i touch you there - michael bolton"
/me -

Its Holi!!!!

Its been fun since morning! I got some colours in office and started putting it to everyone - known and unknown! And slowly people got enthued and then it was one helluva adventure - with ppl running all over the office.. screaming.. saying No, No... laughing.. having fun!!
We have decided not to wash off the colours throughout the day.. :)

Happy Holi guys!!! I soooo love this festival!!! :)

Thats Naiju, Babitha, Anjana and me in the cafeteria :)

bckgrnd - Two steps behind - Def Leppard
/me -

the ill-bill

OK! /me is ill today :(
got fever and sore throat.. came to office to take the conf call..
and whoa! i see one long list of releases due this week.. and which need immediate attention :(
to hell with the releases!

i am worried if i'll be fine till the weekend.. i gotta go to mysore n surprise rachit..
uh uh uh!!! hmph!! i want to go..pray the fever goes down..and i get well by then..

/me pouts

bckgrnd - shayad yehi to pyar hai - lucky (i louuu this song!)
/me -

tada! :)

Life's goooood! And /me is jappy-happy! For no reason! :)

Things I am going to do for the coming week -
- Not talk to Kinshuk, for reasons of cutting down on the phone bill!
- Start going for my swimming classes!
- Document all my important discussions with Hanseu Park(my significant other in the US ;)) during the Conference calls!
- Just take a chill-pill and spend maximum time at home with Shalini! :)
-Get back to my "Learn tamil in 40 days" book. Need to communicate with ma maid after Shalini leaves!
- Give a surprise visit to Rachit in Mysore on the weekend!! *cant believe he is gettin married!!!*

Not bad, eh!! :)

bckgrnd - Madonna - "Sorry"
/me -

Just a thought..

Watched '15Park Avenue' last night on Nitin's laptop..Dont know where the Bongs derive all their talent from! A very well made movie - I must say!
And as I lay in my bed..err couch.. (ok, the bed was granted to Nitin on the lines of 'Atithi Devo Bhava' :D).. I started my all time fav job - diggin' old graves n thinking!! :D [I knew what you thot ;)]

[thinking]
Let go! Just let go!
All my life, I hv been clinging on to things.. clinging on to friends.. clinging on to relationships..clinging on to my job.. to security..to the ambition of being an MBA..to all tht 'looks' good! But its all transient.. It will fade away..I always keep wanting more.. Theres no end..
I sometimes think tht my mind is not free.. I hv reservations..I hv desires..
Have I ever tried saying - "I want nothing." ?? Have I ever tried being desireless?
Guruji says, "Desire means the present is not sufficient enough; its not okay the way it is now, this moment. Desire means projection to the next moment. Desire simply means being unaware of the Infinity. Desire simply means you dont know yourself."

I gather, tht its not like I shudnt desire..Desires shud arise..and if they arise, its okay! But hankering to fulfill them, thinking tht when they are fulfilled only then things will happen - "only then I'll be happy" - THAT is an illusion :(

I hv not accepted enough.
[/thinking]

Phone rings.
Who the hell is calling me at 2 in the night! And heck! Its a landline!!

me(almost whispering) - hello..
*silence*
me(slightly raising my voice) - hello??
*silence* Although I could hear a dog barking in the backgrnd..
me(getting impatient) - dude! Its not the best of the times for you to be cracking a joke! whos this??
At this I heard a harsh manly voice clearing his throat..
"Yaaro?? Avalu iddala??" (means Who are you? Is she there? In kannada)
And he was sooo fuckin loud tht I almost thought I'd create a world record by being the only person who had a heart attack due to loud noise!!!

me(smiling to myself) - Wrong number, anna! Good night :)
"Oh! Sorry amma..(after a pause) Good night."

he he...we hung up.. and I took it as a sign to stop thinking and go to sleep! :)
:ZZZzzzz.. :)

bckgrnd - nil (Prit has borrowed ma headfones)
/me - kinda

Have been looking around for houses for the past 2-3 days..nothing's clicking..
May be I am not looking enough.. may be deep within, I dont want to leave my current place..
May be theres something else in store for me..
Got a really nice one on saturday.. just the perfect place I'd imagined..
Thought I'd call up the owner and confirm the deal..but just as I was about to dial her no., an old friend called up, and I got chatting with him for about half an hour..and the deal was gone in this much time :) Someone else called up 15 min before me & confirmed it :D

Frankly, its certainly not one of the best things to do - looking for houses..!
There was this place I saw with the agent, which was ridiculous! Reallly! It was stinking.. had rats running all over the place.. the walls were painted in an insane red-pink colour, the fan was making the kinda noise u hear when u see a train passing at the signal..it was in this narrow lane, wherein the neighbours were popping their heads out and staring, like they had just seen an alien from Mars! The best deal was, tht one of the two rooms had walls made of glass!!!
I hv absolutely no idea what the owner had in mind while making tht house!! :))

I looked at the agent in anger, and he looked away.. Then I quietly said,
"Raghavendra, we are not exactly in the mood to waste time, are we?"
He humbly said - "No madam, its not like tht madam, I'm sorry madam.. I dint know it was tht bad!"
He sounded so paavam, tht I burst out laughing, and he felt quite embarrassed!
We came out.. and I was thrilled to see tht it was drizzling! Man! Nothing like getting wet in the rain! :)
So I was enjoying and waiting for Raghavndra to start his bike.. when I saw this really old man, all clad in rags..with a torn blanket..sleeping on the street..
His face looked glum..and he was all clumsily rolled up..

Dont know.. something struck me somewhere. Here he was who doesnt hv a place to stay..is generalyl lying here and there.. and here I am, who has seen some 15 places, but cant find even one of them worth living!
Seeing him, dont know what happened..but I suddenly became aware.. tht I'm going to die one day..
Nothing will stay.. I will be old one day, I will suffer all old-age problems.. I will be unable to jump around.. I will be dependent on my kids to take me around..
Yes, there will be one such day.. after 40 years, 50 years, 60 years?
But I'll die..

Dont know, I suddenly felt so weird.. tht I told Raghavendra, tht we'll call it a day..
Went to Cha Bar, Leela(my favvvourite place) and sat there..trying to read a book..sipping a cup of hot tea( yeah, I broke ma resolution :( )

but nothing fell in place..

Came back, and called up a couple of old friends whom I had not spoken to, for months now..

but nothing fell in place..

bckgrnd - nil
/me -

Bitter Sweet Symphony! :)

Lots of things have happened..and I am absolutely kicked about some , and awefully distressed about others! hehe..:D
What a stupid beginning! duh!!

Well, basically, over the years I've realized one thing for sure! That nothing lasts! Nothing ever lasts! SO even if its something causing great misery, chances are tht either you'll grow out of it, or it'll become all fine one day.
So if you look at it - you are always in a Win-Win situation! :D
But still we keep cribbing!

I hv not written for quite sometime.. and now it seems I am running out of words to use! I think I shud start chatting with people, to enhance my online ready-to-use vocabulary! ;)

Ok, first the four things tht happened in the past one week, tht I am really really happy about! :)

- After a lot of running around, and calling up people and convincing them, I finally got involved with The Akshara FOundation! :) (Its an NGO which works for the education of poor children)

- Found out about the weekly Satsang in a nearby place with the Art of Living group.. which means I can enjoy the Satsang + follow up session of Sudarshan Kriya without going to the Ashram every week! :)

- Got myself enrolled for swimming classes which begin from next week!! Yuhoo! :)
My age old dream of learning how to swim!

- Last but not the least, www.patchup.com happened with a good ol' friend :)

And now the 2 not-so-happy things!

- Shalini is leaving bangalore, which means I am gonna miss her like crazy.. :(
We hv been staying together for 2 yrs now in blore.. and before tht 4 years in college.. its been quite a long journey..
Ok, I am not going to talk about it.

- My present house is such an awesome place, and I dont wanna leave it! But it'll turn out very expensive for a single person! And I cannot even think of staying with someone else now!!
So I am in freakin two mindS!!! :D

Well, thats life!! Bitter sweet! :)

bckgrnd - "The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony"
/me -