hehe. ok, the anticlimax was - that I dint get thru the next round! *Sigh*.. nevertheless, it was quite an experience! :)..
Yesterday, I met up with Shalini.. She was travelling from Coimbatore to Pune.. on her way to the new college! The train stops at Bangalore station for 20 mins, and there stood my chance of seeing her..:( It was quite a sentimental situation. I mean, yeah, I am talking about it like a story now.. but yesterday, I wasnt quite aware of what was happening to me... It was a weird sorta feeling.. When I hugged her, one last time, before she got into the train.. I could feel tears rolling down my cheeks.. I tried to fight that feeling.. but it just wouldnt go! I relented to it. A kinda sensation, that I havent felt for a while now...like a part of me was going.. felt so stolen away.. :(
I miss her. A lot! In every single little thing I do!! We had a world of our own.. And now everything looks shattered.. or well, so I think.. *sigh*
People come and go.. but life goes on.. You feel angry.. you scream, you shout, you niggle, you hate people for doing "it" to you, you hate yourself for loving them so much... but then you yield to it. You yield to what life has given you.. or rather thrown at you..
I thought I was cool, when it comes to handling people and relationships. I was SO bloody wrong!! I slump at it BIGtime. Neither do I let go, nor do I want them to come bck! Shit! I am feeling so messed up right now. To hell with everything!
Ha! Ha! Ha! Guess what! I got selected for the second round of that singing competition! And now if I pass the 2nd round, I get to perform Live with Debojit, Vineet, Himani (and other blah blah winners of Saregamapa) in Palace Grounds on June 3rd!!!! Yay!!!!
am excited to the CORE!!! :) Wish me luck! The second round is tomorrow!
Just came back from an awesome lunch! Hari, Sajay and me went out to a far away place called 'sree krishna cafe' today! They serve amazing food!! simply amazing! :) Nice climate.. cool breeze.. mallu songs in the car.. and a long drive... what more can one ask for during a day when you have zilch work! :D
I am gonna take part in a singing competition tomorrow! hehe.. for fun!! :) Yay! Am excited!! :D Alright! But I am still thinking which song to sing!
Been a crazy day! Loads of unrealistic work and oodles of funny things happening at the same time! hehe..
My new house is essentially the 2nd floor of a house.. and on the first floor some 4 guys stay. As per the Law of "Minimum-interaction-else-You'll-invite-trouble" (suggested by Shalini long ago!) , its been close to 2 months now, but I've never even 'seen' those guys! Leave apart talking to them!
So today morning, while I was descending downstairs to get to office, I was in one great mood! chumma! And I was loudly humming this awesome song by Dream Theater called "Surrounded" ..
/me (singing aloud and jumping two steps at a time) - "I know it's eeeeezzzeeear to walk awayyyyyyyyy.... (jump jump) than look it in the eyeeeeee!" (jump jump)
and jump, skid(!!)..and I trip over, baNG,, THUD!!!! ($%^$%&%^#$)
After 10 seconds. I am on the floor. Lying flat! and the last words of the song still echoing in the air!!
Hahahahahaha! I laughed at myself and tried to get up, when I hear - "But I will raise a shelter to the sky...and here beneath this star tonight I lie!! - followed by a laughter! I look up and I see this guy, derisively completing the next few lines of the song for me!!!
Oh shit! Now my face turned all red!! (Or so I think! :D)
I made an attempt to get up, cursing the water on the stairs. In the meanwhile, this chap is done with all his attempts to mock me, and he now turns around to help me get up. But the "I-can-manage-it" spirit in me, dint let him do much! ;)
chap(vaguely trying to smile) - You should be careful. me(subtly scorning) - Yeah, I know. chap - You are okay? me(dusting my clothes) - Yeah, I am fine. You like DT, is it? Remembering all lines and all, huh? (Bleddy showoff!!) chap - Not much! I have just heard a coupla songs. Btw, We hear your song every morning ! (and then he started laughing as if he cracked the best joke in the world! duh!!) me(embarrassed) - Oh! (Hmm).. yeah.. I just .. (well.. uhh).. am a lil loud..
By this time, this chap is thoroughly enjoying his own stupid joke and is giggling non-stop.
me(looking aroundto make sure no one else was looking) -Ok, anyways, See you! chap(smiling) - Yes! have a nice day! me (murmuring) - Yes I will!! You jerk!!
He went inside, while I rushed down only hoping that I dont get stuck with the cheeky gang(as I would call them from now) any further! *sigh*
"The central part of my own life is my death. After a while,it will all come to nothing. Whenever I have the courage to face this, my priorities become clear. At such times nothing is done in order to achieve something else. No energy is wasted on maintaining the illusions. My image does not matter, I do not worry about how I am doing. I do what I do, am what I am. That's it. The imminence of my own death is the pivot around which things turn. This makes what is going on now all that counts."
"All relationships are temporary. It's so terribly hard to remember that we have so little time. We stall, kid ourselves, promise that we will deal with things some time soon. Not only are there many things that we never get around dealing with, but even when we do, there is so damn much waste in the process, so much unnecessary distance between ourselves and those with whom we try to make a life."
- Sheldon B. Koop ------- I want to get this book called - "If you meet Buddha on the road, kill him!" Its by this dude called Sheldon B. Koop. I've read its reviews. It would be quite a read. *sigh* I just want it. Want it. Want it! :( But I have no money on me. I cant complain much, coz just last Sunday, I bought 3 books from Oxford on Global Terrorism , Corruption and Who wants Democracy and spent an amount, I shouldnt have spent, considering the present economic situation. No, it wasnt an impulsive purchase. It was well-thought upon!
But, still! What the!!!?!?
bckgrnd - "Californication" - Red Hot Chilli Peppers /me -
You know, I am just quite excited today! For one, coz I have been getting drenched in the rain for the past two days! Its such an awesaaaaaaam thing!! Man! I shud be investing in some property in Cherrapunji! No, serious! :D
My maid gave me a scorning silent look today morning, to see all those clothes smeared in mud! I pretended like I dint see her reaction.
For two, coz I made friends with this really cute thing called Elwin. Man! He is one helluva crazy guy! But sweet, nevertheless! Although he'd call himself the "mean-green-slime-machine"! hehe/..
Life's beginning to become betterer!! I'm excited about the new office we are going to shift to. WIll be some experience! Went and checked out my new place today.. Its next to this HUGE HUGE , I mean really huge glass window with lots of greenery outside! I almost fainted to see Santa-Destiny-Claus with the goodies for once!
me - So! How did it all happen so fast? Mom just told me today that you are getting engaged! P(smiling gleefully) - Yes, I am still in Palakkad. Heading back to Chennai now.
me - Oh! You're on roaming? Should I call you later or something? P - Nah, its fine! I hv been waiting to discuss about it with someone! So, ask ask!
me(eyes popped out) - Bloody!! Whats gotten into you!? Getting full excited , is it? P - Ofcourse! Initially I thought I wouldnt marry now.. only after my US trip.. But ever since I saw her, I am thinking of postponing my trip!
me - Lol!! Lol!! So did you guys go on some bigtime date in the kerala farms? *wink* P - Nah.. not much.. we were just alone for 5-10 minutes.. She hardly talked, and I was busy staring at her long hair.. She looked so impeccable that if I'd have drawn a circle around her, she'd not have moved out of it!!
me - what a bizzare analogy!! lol!! Ok, tell me more about her! P - *sigh* I dont know. She is tall and fair. She is studying in Malampuzha. Her family possesses a cute labrador. Thats all.
me - What!!?! Are you kidding? You said a Yes, is it? Whatever happened to your long list of expectations from your would-be wife? Shrunk down to the labrador? God! Prasad!! lol P - What to do Suggie. Life's like that. Just when you think its going one way, it gives you a jerk, and takes it another way! I think I am okay with her. Big deal!! *sigh*
me - Hmm! For a child of your age, thats a LOT of philosophy!! hehe.. So, whenz the engagement? P - July sometime.. You'll be free right..?
me - I'll make myself free, dontcha worry! WHere's it gonna be/? P - In Malampuzha only.. her native.
me - Malam-who? P - Malampuzha!! puzha!! PUZHA!! Ok, forget it!
me - Cool! Shalini got me a set-mundu last month! I am excited that I am finally gonna wear it now! Does yuor girl understand Hindi? P - I dont think so. She is born and brought up in Kerala.. So...
me - Aiyyo!! Ok, so she is the typical mallu homely gurl with coconut oil and pookkal in her hair, is it? :) *wink* P - Shut up now, will u? I am gonna change all that of hers!
me - Lol, Lol!! Ok ok! chill! chalo, will catch up later.. congrats again!! -----------
Hehe.. I am excited!! :) Some marriage happening in my good 'ol family!! :)
I was wondering, why hasnt it rained for so long now.. I want to jump in those mud puddles and get soaked in the rain... and to hear it pattering on the leaves of the trees outside... :(
For some reason, I am not feeling too great. Feeling alone. Feeling left out. I want it to rain. Rain really heavily. So much that it blinds my vision. So much that I am not able to see where I am going. So much that it becomes sick.
You know what? I hate some people. I hate them so much that it hurts, everytime I think of being associated with them, ever! Does God exist? Does he condemn people for being reckless and act like cheap mean bastards?
I dont care.
I just want it to rain and give me some company. duh!!
Its a whole new life.. New house.. new room mate.. new lifestyle.. a changed outlook ever since I came back from my trip. Today morning, I woke up a lil early.. heard the birds chirping outside my window and sun's first rays peeping in. I went outside and sat in my "oh-so-awesome" cane swing.. Gentle cold breeze was blowing on my face.. and I was blank in my mind..until I noticed a squirrel hopping on the trees infront..
Thats the best thing I like about my new house.. that all rooms are so nicely ventilated! I have two huge windows in my room.. There is no need for any tubelights all throughout the day. The same is true for other rooms as well.. And there is this huge unused backyard of a house right opposite mine.. where lots of green plants and big green trees are sitting, plus some pet hens..birds and a lot of squirrels!
It is good... just that I miss Shalini in everything I do... :( but then.. wise men say, that life will go on.. with or without her... *sigh*
