today has been such a wierd day.. first i woke up late at 6.45am, realised i had a conference call at 7.30.. and another meeting at 8.15!!
so, rushed through to take a shower.. missed my meditation activities.. quickly made lunch.. and dialled in from the hotel itself.. then dropped off half way in the call so that i cud rush and catch up for the 8.15 cattle call!!! And only to realise on the way, that it was a tuesday and the meeting at 8.15 was actually scheduled for wednesday!!
i was like, damn!! where is my focus!!
came to offce.. and loads of mails.. lots of work yet again.. somehow managed to wind it up by 12.. when i realised, oh.. i havent called kinshuk today! spoke with him.. and that helped me relax for sometime.. :) theen thought i shud have my lunch.. only to realise that i forgot to put salt in the pulao!! :( i was in no mood to go to the cafeteria and get salt.. so just ate some with curd and pickle.. and had some juice and stuff!! needless to say, i was massive pissed off till now!!
then suddenly this 'gang of cleaners' landed in my office.. they wanted to clean my room and were not ready to listen to anything other than "ok, you may"!! :)) so i was supposed to get up and leave the room.. while they'll scramble up all my neatly scattered papers... hehe.. i got up.. and was about to leave.. when one of the senior looking cleaner stared at me with eyes popped out.. i was already mad as hell, to top that, an unexpected stare from a broom holder was the last thing i ever wanted!!
so i stopped and said- yes? he looked at me.. and started shaking in an abnormal fashion.. i was really stunned, and thought may be i stepped on his foot by mistake or something.. or god knows if i resemble his age old enemy.. i was genuinely scared to see the look in his eyes.. thats when i saw him slowly move his index finger... it was pointing towards my laptop kept on the table.. at this instant, i took a deep breath.. and went closer to him.. and asked him as politely as i could - "what are you trying to say?!? " he strained his eyes, bent a little, turned his back towards me, and said -- "Take the laptop with you, and work in the lobby, while I clean up your office with my team. We dont want to be disrupting your business. These are IBM values."...
bang!!! boom!!! #%$^#*&)
I was zapped.
I quietly took my laptop, unplugged the charger, and walked out of the room.
Stood in the lobby outside the room.. and pretended to work.. I was shivering with this guy's loud voice still echoing in my ears!! I almost felt, that if he sees me not typing something for 180 seconds, he will probably run towards me with his vacuum cleaner to hit me!! man, was I scared or what!
After some 30 minutes, he finished his work.. and went out, uttering something, which I thought was a 'thank you'... strangely, he didnt go to any of the adjacent rooms with his 'so called team' and teach IBM values..
i was impressed with the way he cleaned.. not a thing was moved from its place.. but the whole place was spic-and-span! :)
such was the day.. with all its weirdness!! :) i took a break to scribble it down for my own memory sake!! hehehahahaha! :))
going to chicago next week.. and will catch up with kaps, essie, jisha and madhav!! excited.com! yay! life is good.. only if my dates to go back to india will somehow come soooon!!
backgrnd -- "kaun kehte hain bhagwan aate nahin.. tum meera ke jaise bulate nahin.. " :) (Download here) /me --
why do i seek perfection in everything i do? why do i want my conversations to have a perfect ending? why do i want to talk about perfect topics which involve no clash and contradiction of opinions? why is it necessary that everything has to be perfect all the time? ALL the time!?!?
am i being melodramatic, or intentionally depressing? i am just tired. i dont like this entire activity of being here in US...:( i have always done things which "feel right"..no matter how illogical. and, somehow there is no feel good factor while i am here in US.. although they serve you dollars on a plate everyday!! :( somehow, i am not able to encash my smile for it.. thing is to realise, what matters to you most. i know my answer, hence the big decision which rolled out of my mailbox this morning.
i got nothing to my name now.. only hopes and dreams.. :) i am much better now.. and the situation - less imperfect!! :)
bckgrd -
"You stand before me Now we stare eye to eye Before another second clicks away, one of us will die You reach for your metal as I reach for mine The sound of bullets flying through the air is followed by a cry And there cryin'
What will we do, what will we say when it’s the end of this game that we play Will we crumble into the dust, my friend Or will we start this game over again..."
i am soooooooooooo delighted!! i just had drumstick sambhar!! :) yay!! yay!!! :) i am so crazy about this entire activity - of me looking at drumstick sambar.. yum yum... then getting thrilled..yum yum...then grabbing a plate, putting a heap of rice on my plate, and then pouring the hot steaming.. yum yum .. sambar.. yum yum.. on it...yum yum!!! :)
who?! exactly who discovered this activity called drumstick!! i want to kiss his hands! :)
kannan sweetly invited us to his place for pongal.. and man!! i was feeling so damn hungry with the whole day of mad work at office.. and was dying to get back home! but arun lured me to come to the library before we reached kannan's place.. !! i bought 2 books and a DVD... but who in the whole wide world has the time to read it!! i am missing my reading here.. :( .. there is just no time!! when i come back from office, its almost a sin to do anything other than eat, sleep and talk on fone!
so i have decided to cut down on my sleep a bit,.. and give room for the books that i bought!! i am pretty thrilled about one of it called -- 'At first sight' by Nicholas Sparks. The guy looked pretty cool on the cover, hope he writes well too!!
whoa!! what a day!! although for some reason my head is spinning like a fly wheel right now.. but i am not thinking much abt it.. :) time to sleep!!
Spoke with Laina on the phone today,, She is one person, who always.. always...always makes me smile.. and have that adrenaline rush when we talk about doing crazy things!!! :)
Hehe.. yesterday there was free lunch at the cafeteria.. IBM was celebrating launch of Sony Playstation, for which the micro processors were designed by it. So there was this Play Station installed by them.. and a moderator who was trying to lure people to come and play it.. and experience the blah blah features!
Me, and two friends were rushing to catch up with a 1pm meeting.. but ofcourse, couldnt just ignore the temptation to play on that awesome looking system.. it was a car racing game.. So there we jump and say -- 'Ok.. We are going next!! "
One vrrom vrrrroooooooom session and I kept banging everywhere.. I know I am bad at playing all these games.. but dont know why, I still do it!! :) Everyone stood surrounding me.. and that took away half my focus.. !!! and I was screaming "oh no! oh damn! oh comon.. I cant do this"... and people were cheering me..
The entire game had suddenly become a big deal.. and within minutes, other people who were sitting around also hopped over to see what was up!! hahahaha!! I had made such a joke of myself!!!
After much hue and cry, I finished eighth. Out of 10. But I had a lot of fun!! :) People started moving saying.. "That was good! Good show! " Wonder if they were talking about the awesome graphics or my skills! lol!!
bckgrnd -- "yun hi chala chal rahee - swades" /me -- 2 x
Sometimes I think as to what it takes to make a relationship work? What is a relationship, without the "zsa zsa zsu"!!?
One could probably be in a comfortable relationship with his/her best friend,having a good time.. hanging out..sharing feelings and thoughts.. but without the sex part, will it give you butterflies in the stomach??
Perhaps not.
So then when it comes to say "I do".. wats more important..? sex or friendship?
oh my god!! today i watched this movie called "little miss sunshine" in $1 !! was fun.. i just died laughing!! it was so damn funny!! :)
i accessed blogger after so long.. and i had no idea it has merged with google!! awesome!! i love the gmail id written at the top of the window as i type this post.. :)
actually i was thinking today.. that when i am away from my place.. i am actually in touch with only those.. who matter! really.. :) and they are not too many.. may be just 3 people in my whole list of gtalk messenger and orkut!.. just 3 people -- one being mom-dad!!! i genuinely dont seem to care what others want or think.. and this is so much better than doing fake conversations with people all the time.. man, i am beginning to hate these messengers.. they are just some make-believe tools! people ping.. say "hey! hello! whats up!? whats going on!? hows work? hows US ?? send pics!" ........ this & that! i wonder, how many of them are genuinely interested in how i am! or whats my work load.. how does it matter to anyone save me? or how is US.. send pics.. blah blah.. dont know, i find it phoney!
Yeah.. been long! I havent had the zest to write.. Was so busy with myself!! hehe.. Let me know if you find a word for that sorta situation!! lol.. Life has been great! Perhaps thats why I fell short of any attempt to sum it up in words..
I did certain things.. made some big decisions. took some revolutionary steps. hurt a few people.. made a couple of friends.. Good fun!
You know I always thought, that things happen to us. And that we are mere spectators to whats been written 'up there' ! As funny as it sounds.. I now believe, that we do "choose" what happens.
Its life's hardest truth - as I see it. Coz it causes us to realize that we have chosen the life we are living right now.
Yeah.. Life is choices.
You have chosen to live this day. You have chosen to read my blog. You have chosen to live in a certain city. You have chosen to believe certain ideas. You have chosen the people you call friends.
You choose the food you eat, the clothes you wear, and the thoughts you think. You choose to be calm or restless, you choose to feel appreciative or ungrateful.
Love is a choice. Anger is a choice. Fear is a choice. Courage is a choice.
You choose.
Isnt it also a liberating thought!? :)
I am so happy with myself that I cannot begin to wonder more about it, than I'm doing already! Will be more regular with my blogs now.. Keeps me on the roll!
Bravo!
bkgrnd --"justin timberlake --sexyback" -- I love this one!!! /me -
