every moment is a celebration!!

Alright! So its Diwali and all that yet again.
and yet again I am not at home!

Whatever!

/me believes - every moment is a celebration!! :-)

(and the Nobel Prize 2005 for "Optimism" goes to Sugzzzzzzzzz!! ) :-D

*** background plays -

Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort! Suffocation... no Breathing..!
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arms bleeding,
Would it be wrong, would it be right
If I took my life tonight, chances are that I might

chances are that I might!! hehe...

Happy Diwali !! :-)
Smile and Shine !

I do my thing
And you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations
And you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you and I am I.
And if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful,
If not, it can't be helped.

- Fritz Perls

hOw CoOl iZz ThAt ~! :D

feeling good!

Feeling totally exultant today! For no reason - ofcourse! :-)
Met up with Aparna for lunch..
sigh.. it was nice.. we just talked abt some general stuff.. which eventually transformed into a philosophical discussion!! (why am I not surprised!!!)

Its actually very important to connect with the right kinda people.. always.
There are some people who just accrue the positivity in us.. and you feel nice.. :-)
But there are some, whose presence just catalyses all the negative vibrations.. and even though they wouldnt 'do' anything preposterous.. you'll just end up feeling not-so-happy!

and ofcourse one needs to have a discerning eye for the former kinda people.. :D

I dont know why, actually, but some people just depress me by merely saying a "hi"! Its ridiculous I say! :-D

Bought the book - 'Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance!' Have wanted to read it for a long time.. But never got the time!
/me is quite thrilled abt it!! :-)

Dream Theater ROX!!!!
:-)

thats me in the corner..!

/me sings

That's me in the corner, That's me in the spotlight, Losing my religion..!!

I like this snap, for the sheer 'reason' - that there is none! :-)

Venue - Kochi, Kerala.
Date - 2005 July-end sometime..
Time - huh?
Members - Abey, Tharian, me, Guly, Madhav(!) - ma BITS friends!


This one was also in Kochi..
Backwaters or someone like that..
I remember getting into an annoying situation with a local fishman, coz i was jumping on the wooden board too much.. hehe..

its insane..

we dont exist in isolation. we just dont.
it is to be understood that our actions and words make a difference to others around us.
we just cant afford to be selfish.
everyone will be happy that ways , that is - everyone - except me.

:-(

****
[blind melon]
All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watchin' the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
and speak my point of view
But it's not sane, It's not sane

I just want some one to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made
And I don't understand why I sleep all day
And I start to complain that there's no rain
And all I can do is read a book to stay awake
And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape
escape......escape......escape......

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
ya don't like my point of view
ya think I'm insane
Its not sane......it's not sane

[/blind melon]
****

Impulsiveness helps..

I am almost always impulsive and this time I loved being it. :-)
Went to Chennai just like that - to meet Madhavi..booked tix 4 hours before the departure of the bus..and there I go!

We did nothing at all throughout the day. Infact most of the time, we just sat and looked at the rain and drank coffee..and talked.. I think I consumed around 8 mugs full of coffee in a matter of 5 hours..
it was nice.

Just gimme some hot coffee and a nice book. And let it pour heavily outside..and a window/terrace to look at the rain - and I am a happy child!! And thats what exactly refreshes me!

All the shit in ma head seems to be washed now.. and am all set to have a new beginning. :)

I always used to think that 'talking' to someone abt the apparent mess in ma life is equivalent to me being a creeper and I will end up feeling weak and all that... but I was wrong.
I just sat next to her, looked at the rain..and spoke my heart out. It was pretty sad .. and I did become sentimental and all that.. but she seemed unperturbed.. and patiently listened to everything that I had to say..

U know, it helps to look at things from other person's point of view. When u are stuck with yer own fallacious opinions - its nothing but a vicious circle. You gotta break the loop - and thats where the catch is!

I am glad I made this trip. I realise now, that I badly needed it. :D
Particularly, coz I forced her mom to make drumstick sambhar for me! How I louuuu it!! :)

The next 5 days are however going to be 'home-alone' since Shalini has gone back home...
But me is coolax and chillax now!! :)

ubayokyu!

whenever shalini and me have a witty discussion-cum-word-war - her last resort is to throw unfamiliar and often extraneous malyalam words! this sure leaves me stumped :D
she gets ready at some 6 in the morning for office, when i am still sleeping..(or atleast it "looks" like 6 since 8 is too early to wake up for any normal human being)..and at that insane hour,my fighting powers are also a lil debilitated..so she racks me quite easily! :-D

the word for yesterday was - 'ubayokyu' - hell!!

.......

shal(while getting ready): ...yeah i spoke to him last week...
me(covering ma head with the blanket) : god! can we please NOT mention him right in the morning?
shal : nee avane ubayokichu!!
me(rubbing ma eyes) : what??
shal : NEE AVANE UBAYOKICHU!!!
me : dont say 'shit' in 'malyalam'!! err.. redundant statement!!
shal(defensive mode): excuse me? its any day better than ur shitty hindi!
me : huh? one - i dont speak in hindi with you! two - i dont believe in racism of any sort!
shal : but you do believe in torturing people. dont you??
me : good lords! dont tell me you are talking abt that 'bitter gourd' curry again??
shal : YES I AM!! it was sheer torture!!


***
[FLASHBACK]

One evening, when Shalini comes back home, I open the door with a big smile.
[/me looks happy for some reason! ]

me(smiling) : hey! how was the day?
shal : yeah.. hectic as usual! how abt yers..
me(grinning) : hehe..
shal(suspicious look) : eh? you upto something?
me(excited) : you know what i made for dinner today??
shal: what?
me : bitter gourd curry!!!! :)
shal : w0000000000ttt!!!! YUCK!! I WILL NOT EAT IT!
me : arrey! i know you dont like it and all..but you must give everything a chance!! please!
shal : a chance?? my ass!! i will die of hunger, but not touch bitter gourd!
me : you cannot deny it! its a vegetable - God created it - its for a purpose! and you cannot defy nature's rules and intentions!!!
shal(pouting) : yeah right! God created my tongue also!! and the taste buds on it refuse to like it!! Fine?
me(philosophical mode) : oh c'mon! Look at it this way - besides being an exceptional nutritious vegetable it also re-iterates the fact that not everything in life is sweet and rosy!
shal : i have YOU to remind me of that!

[/FLASHBACK]
***

me : but that day, 'you' made me wash all the dishes 'alone' after dinner. .*sigh*
shal : served you well!!
me : you also did the 'ubayokyu' business with me!!! whatever that means!!
shal(smiling) : ok, are we done?
me(smiling) - guess so!!
shal(closing the door) : ok, me is leaving..
me(winking) : hey! but wat does ubayokyu mean!?!??!!?

living my life too much in the sun!

This world is spinning around me
This world is spinning without me..
Every day sends future to past
Every breath leaves one less to my last...