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Tuesday, February 07, 2006

just a matter of time?

I have always believed tht if God closes one avenue.. he creates several others..

While at school.. I was always competing with Anadi for 1st Rank.. but somehow I always used to miss it by 2-3 marks, and end up coming 2nd...I still clearly remember how stymied I used to feel, when during the award function Anadi used to stand before me in the queue for prize winners..But at the same time, I thought tht may be God has some reason to make me feel this way.. May be he wants me to work harder..And I dint give up..
At the risk of sounding conceited, I was elated when in class 12th Boards, I secured a state rank in CBSE... and I remember, my only concern was tht I had defeated Anadi - finally!

When I went to BITS, the IIT disaster kept ringing in my head.. and I wasnt sure if I had made the best of my decisions to join BITS..But still I was sure tht whatever is happening is certainly
happening for good.. and there is a reason for my being here..
And I certainly do not, in any way regret my degree at BITS now!!

There were lots of incidents in college too.. when I had literally thought tht this is the end of life.. hehe.. I remember what a huge crush I had on Vinod.. and when he dint respond.. I felt like I was ruined! But nah.. I had hope.. tht this is not wht is meant to happen..
And now Vinod is perhaps teh best of my friends.. and whom I adore more than anyone! ANd honestly, I think I like it this way better :)

Time passed.. and I ended up in IBM..
Man! I remember how I was sitting in Institute Cafeteria the day the results were announced and cursing my fate as to why I got IBM, when I had actually wanted Texas Instruments! I was scribbling in ma diary.. and the only thing I wrote was - 'Everything happens for good'..
And yeah.. it was indeed! I ended up in one of the best Microelectronics team here at IBM..with just exactly the kinda work I wanted..and with a manager who is one gem of a person!

Days went by...and I now gave my MBA exams..
Even with a good score in CAT and XAT.. I dint get any calls,..
I have just missed it..I just did... :(
An year's hard work just went unnoticed..
Frankly, in the end its not abt the score..Its all about being on this side of the fence or tht side of it..

Its a ravage. It really is!! Atleast looks like it.
But something within tells me tht this is not the end.. and there is something good in it too.. though I cant figure out what...

O God, where are the other avenues?? Exactly where are they!!! :(

I am beginning to wonder whether its just a matter of time tht we adjust to whatever has happened? or is it tht everything indeed happens for good!?

bckgrnd - 'boulevard of broken dreams - green day'
/me -

8 Comments:

Blogger Nikhilesh said...
Its a ravage. It really is!! Atleast looks like it.
But something within tells me tht this is not the end.. and there is something good in it too.. though I cant figure out what..

will certaimly figure out in the near future..
amen
12:10 AM  
Blogger Kaps said...
God is a little busy helping me find new crushes :P..he said he will get back to u soon. (yeah GOD is 'he'..dont pick on me.ok.)

sab chill hoga re.
aiiii also beleeb that bhawtebher happendss happendss phor gououod
1:51 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...
u'd be alright! try try try till u succeed .. and i think u'd be very successful .. though i still dont understand why u wanna go into MBA (HR!!!!) though you are so keen on microelectronics (or whatever of that electronic crap) ... still to what u do and like :) ..

-- good luck!
7:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...
Hugs for you :)
10:35 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...
everything happens for good..and its true, don be sad, u r a wonderful person.
sometimes when we see things from very close, they look blurred, we cannot figure out what is that actully...right or wrong,,black or white, give urself some more time. there will b a clear picture in font of u , n u'll realise , 'yeah this is the best that cud hav happend to me'
....belive me..

"raah pakar tu ek chala chal,
paa jayega madhushala"

:-)

miss ya...
1:02 AM  
Blogger Anadi Misra said...
Jhoot bolte sharam nahi aati...u never lost by 2-3 marks...but HUGE margins...atleast 30-40 marks cumulative...Duniya ko grade skool ke baare mein jhoot bol ke impress karna chahti ho...chi chi...Learn to accept these things girl!
Do accept this comment...if u still have that stupid moderation thing going on...I want the world to know the truth :D
4:38 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...
ha ha ha ha ha ....... :-)
12:29 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...
Everything does not happen for the good. Only the paranoids survive! Go chase your dreams again.
6:04 PM  

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