Wasted time... well spent!
Yeah, now when I look at it.. thats what it is.
We all have our phases. Good.. bad...
The best part about bad ones is that you can always take a lesson from them.. and close the deal by spitting at it. Literally.
And then move on.. or atleast 'pretend' that you have moved on.
Its not easy, obviously. But it has to be done. It just HAS to be done, or you'd go to the dogs..whining.. cribbing.. being unhappy.. blaming everyone around.. and what not.
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Had this amazing IBM Learning Lab Programme today. It was conducted at the Le-Meridian. Was nice. Met lots of new people there..
It was apparently a forum for us to network and build relations within IBM and communicate.. and blah blah..
Generally I tend to enjoy such opportunities. But this time it was kinda funny. I could see myself holding back from all conversations.
Basically no one knew anyone there.
and when we had these tea-breaks and lunch breaks..people would just barge in and jump around and wanna talk their complete life-history out to the first person available!
I found myself so uncomfortable during all that. There was this guy who worked at EGL. I was standing in one corner sipping ma tea..He smiled at me. I tried to smile back.. but the god damn smile just wouldnt come! Then this guy walks up..and says..
"Hey! SO, which office do u work in"
"GE"
(Pause for 5 minutes)
"Oh okay! What department?"
"E&TS"
(Pause for 5 minutes)
"Oh! Good good!SO how long have u been here..?"
"a month and a half"
(Pause again)
"nice!! So what is it that u work in..? Chip design.. is it? Thats what u mentioned in the introduction round.."
"Yeah, chip designing."
(Long Pause)
Then he looked around.. and tried to smile again. Then I stood there like a complete idiot.. not knowing what to do, what to say. I was scared. I was paranoid. I was very seriously thinking of fleeing from there.
Then he said, "Excuse me"
He made a bad face.. I guess he wanted to slap me.
and went off in an opposite direction.
Frankly, I did want to ask all those questions back. Very honestly, I really did wish I could. But the words just wouldnt come outta ma mouth!
Such a thing has never happened with me..
/me is feeling quite sad.
I
We all have our phases. Good.. bad...
The best part about bad ones is that you can always take a lesson from them.. and close the deal by spitting at it. Literally.
And then move on.. or atleast 'pretend' that you have moved on.
Its not easy, obviously. But it has to be done. It just HAS to be done, or you'd go to the dogs..whining.. cribbing.. being unhappy.. blaming everyone around.. and what not.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Had this amazing IBM Learning Lab Programme today. It was conducted at the Le-Meridian. Was nice. Met lots of new people there..
It was apparently a forum for us to network and build relations within IBM and communicate.. and blah blah..
Generally I tend to enjoy such opportunities. But this time it was kinda funny. I could see myself holding back from all conversations.
Basically no one knew anyone there.
and when we had these tea-breaks and lunch breaks..people would just barge in and jump around and wanna talk their complete life-history out to the first person available!
I found myself so uncomfortable during all that. There was this guy who worked at EGL. I was standing in one corner sipping ma tea..He smiled at me. I tried to smile back.. but the god damn smile just wouldnt come! Then this guy walks up..and says..
"Hey! SO, which office do u work in"
"GE"
(Pause for 5 minutes)
"Oh okay! What department?"
"E&TS"
(Pause for 5 minutes)
"Oh! Good good!SO how long have u been here..?"
"a month and a half"
(Pause again)
"nice!! So what is it that u work in..? Chip design.. is it? Thats what u mentioned in the introduction round.."
"Yeah, chip designing."
(Long Pause)
Then he looked around.. and tried to smile again. Then I stood there like a complete idiot.. not knowing what to do, what to say. I was scared. I was paranoid. I was very seriously thinking of fleeing from there.
Then he said, "Excuse me"
He made a bad face.. I guess he wanted to slap me.
and went off in an opposite direction.
Frankly, I did want to ask all those questions back. Very honestly, I really did wish I could. But the words just wouldnt come outta ma mouth!
Such a thing has never happened with me..
/me is feeling quite sad.
I
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